“Some people have only one skill, and they struggle to lead their career with it. But you, you have so much, much more”…
Thank you for trusting your world in my hands and patiently letting me fail time after time at managing it, just to encourage me to try again. Thank you for your guidance, thank you for all your love. Thank you for growing me into the woman you see today. I’m sorry if I broke you.
Your words meant a world to me. I loved you without questions. I loved you without knowing who you were. I loved you without understanding. Without expecting anything in return. And I never spoke of my love.
I clung to each one of your words as though it was mine to you, as though you had reflected what was already inside me, without the complication of our minds. I loved you so deeply & madly, so lost among my peers at even the mention of your heart. I clung to you as my reflection, as my only unknowing & unwitting heart, as the murmur of my light-headedness around you.
I did not recognise myself. Shy, awkward and self-doubting, this was a broken version of my soul. My happiness was shooed away by fleeting doubts of worth and time. I clung, with all my heart and every breath that I felt wasn’t mine anymore. I clung.
I clung. Yet today I’ve let you go. I’m sorry if I broke you on the way here.